Jennifer Knapp

I would like to know why we think of ourselves as "mini-gods" who have the ability to pass judgement on others. What makes us so righteous that we believe we are above sin?
I would like to know how many of Ms. Knapp's (former) followers encouraged her in her daily walk with the Lord. How many of us prayed for her as she was surely attacked on a daily basis for standing out and ministering to us for so many years? I know I never did. I never really considered the temptations and struggles that Christian leaders and role models face day in and day out.
Shame on me. Shame on us for sitting on thrones carved from stones of false righteousness as we point our sticky, judgemental fingers at those who do not meet our standards.
She is a woman of God and she is struggling in her sin just as every one of us struggle in our sin every day.
May we see that we are all created equal; no one man above another.
May we never fail to lend a hand when we see a tempted man struggling.
May we never turn blind eyes to the misfortunes of others.
May we speak only words based on love and encouragement.
May we make earnest our prayers that she come back to the complete love of God where she belongs.
May we all remember the wholeness of God's love and stand firm against our sins.


HOLD ME NOW
Jennifer Knapp

"From glass alabaster she poured out the depths of her soul
Oh, foot of Christ would You wait if her harlotry's known?
Falls a tear to darken the dirt of humblest offerings to forgive the hurt
She is strong enough to stand in Your love
I can hear her say...

I am weak, I am poor
I'm broken, Lord, but I'm Yours
Hold me now, hold me now

Let he without sin cast the first stone if you will
To say that my bride isn't worth half the blood that I've spilled
Point your finger and laugh if you choose to say my beloved is borrowed and used
She is strong enough to stand in my love
I can hear her say...

I am weak, I am poor
I'm broken, Lord, but I'm Yours
Hold me now, hold me now"

Something more...

I would like to know from where it is that we derive our personal worth. Is it from the clothes we wear? The cars we drive? The houses in which we reside? Hairstyles? Makeup? Shoes? Who are we and what are we doing?

Why is it that we pour so much time, money, and effort into accumulating petty items? I'm not condemning the ownership of any of materials; I don't believe it is wrong or shameful to be in posession of these, I would just like to know why we base so much of our own personal worth and time on such trivial items. Why are these items so important to us? Why do they become the center focus of our lives? I can't help but wonder, are so very captivated by this stuff that we are totally missing our potential to do truly great things?

I'm tired of playing stupid, meaningless roles in society. I want to mean something to somebody. I want to make changes that mean something. I want to share that feeling of love, the feeling of being the recipient of actions that originate from the goodness of one's heart, to those who have never experienced it.

I want my personal worth, my raison d'être, to come from helping others achieve a life that is filled with experiences based on helping them to pass on joy and goodwill to the rest of the world.

I just want to be a little bit more than I am.